second thoughts…and third ones too…
what if he doesn’t like me?
what if i mess this up?
what if we’re going to fast?
what if i don’t tell him how i’m feeling?
what if he’s like this with every girl he dates?
what if this ends in disaster?
what if i’m wasting my time again?
what if i’m letting myself fall and he ends up not catching me?
what if i’m not seeing this for what it really is?
what if he’s better at this game than i am?
what if he doesn’t mean what he says but i believe it anyway?
what if he’s right for me right now?
what if he’s a good man?
and he actually likes me the way i am?
what if i am as special as he makes me feel?
what if this is more than just a crush?
what if this is something i should take serious?
what if he’s a better man than i recognize him for?
well, there’s more risk in that, isn’t there?
at a point when i’m starting to involve emotions, this is beginning to feel a little scary.
maybe that’s why the anxious feelings…
“Never trust a second though. Where there’s two there’s three. You’ll end up thinking forever.” -Fishism
